She doesn't have a summer job yet, her possible seasonal employer is really slow at everything...
She has something like a future--grad school--but that is still very uncertain. Next week, during finals week, she's going down to tour the school and look for housing. She is excited that she may be possibly adopting her aunt's dog, so she may have a roommate next year after all.
She has more homework than she knows what to do with and no ambition to do any of it!
She took a BIO 250 exam today, which she didn't really study as hard as she could have for. She thinks, "I'll pass the class, so I'll graduate."
She wonders how many chapel credits she has, and if she'll have enough... "maybe I'll graduate." She'll graduate if she doesn't, she'll just have to write a paper about how NWC chapel has impacted her life. "Chapel has changed my life--I learned how to sing the Doxology in 4 part harmony!"
Thinking about leaving makes her feel a bit like the rat she dissected on thursday in Bio lab... fresh and frozen and cut and changed and so very uncertain of what's inside and outside of her.
She had to write her part of the senior girls' "advice to underclass-women" letter last night. What can she say about 4 years of college? She doesn't really remember what life was like before she came here--of course she still remembers some, but she has willingly forgotten most of it. "Take care of yourselves, each other, and this place." "Love each other well, do good work." "To the King."
God, do I have to leave?
God, I want to leave, I'm ready.
I don't want to leave.
I'm excited about the future.
I am so scared of what comes next.
What does a senior in college do 14 days before she graduates?
Prays. Cries. Rejoices. Trusts God.
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What does the mom of a senior in college do 14 days before her daughter graduates?
She experiences overwhelming excitement in the pit of her stomach while her heart beats rapidly deep inside her chest with the questions of "how did I do?" "did I teach her everything she needs to know on her own?" "does she know how much I love her"
What does the mom of a senior in college do 14 days before her daughter graduates?
She celebrates the beauty that radiates from the inside completely through the outside of the offspring she has raised. She closes her eyes and recalls the memories that only that child could leave with her. She smiles to herself as tears swell up in her eyes, is it joy, fear, admiration, worry, love, peace of mind.....the answer is yes.
What does the mom of a senior in college do 14 days before her daughter graduates?
She prays,
God, does she have to leave?
God, I know she can do it, she's ready.
I don't want her to leave.
I'm excited about her future.
I am content with what comes next.
What does the mom of a senior in college do 14 days before her daughter graduates?
Prays. Cries. Rejoices. Trusts God.
this is me "commenting it up" as you requested...and by the way, your mom is so precious!
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